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The moniter I see, but eyes are hidden. Tho i steal glimpses of the forbidden. I dig to the person that sits and types. Saying words of love, humor or gripes. You make me laugh. You make me cry. I attempt to tell you how I care. I try. You cant see my eyes only my word. Did you see my heart with what you heard? It bothers me sometimes i cant deny. Still I'll tell you goodnight but never goodbye. You are the person i've met, but have yet to hug.. We have time, for my heart can never unplug.

You say your words with useless bile. Breaking my heart, while you smile. What makes you cold and cruel inside? What happen to the man I knew, his pride. You lied to me from the first day I have heard. Still i didnt believe it, I remained blurred. I trusted you. Your heart. Your charm. Never realizing that my heart was in harm. You became someone i depended on. Its hard to realize that now your gone. I want to believe  you have reason. That it was not just heartless treason. I will not break, I will not crumble and fall. Tho trusting your lies made me feel small. I am not angry, I have closed the door. My heart is healing, t

You will never be For that I am sorry Forgiveness is what I need But this guilt rests solely on me You cannot accept my apology Because… You will never be You cannot hear You cannot see You simply cannot be I'll never hold your precious body in my arms I'll never see what or who you would have become Because… You will never be You will never come You will never know the Fierceness of hate...it's ugly red glow nor the Intensity of love....it's beautiful light shows You will never know because… You will never be And this all because of me For my instability Doubt. Fear. Selfishness. Wrong. I was wrong... What I have done